On losing the ground beneath your feet

Have you ever felt losing the ground beneath your feet? Have you ever seen your whole world turning upside down out of nowhere, without any warning? Have you ever felt so small and so powerless before an inevitable event that all you can do is stand still watching all that you considered a given in your reality shatter in an unfixable way? Have you ever felt that there was nothing on earth, not even a small corner, not even a loved one's hug, that could keep you safe from the world, as you know it, breaking down forever? How disgusting the apathy of those who haven't. 
Wed 22/09/21 22:43

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  1. Janice and poppy15/6/22 20:23

    Your written words, are like reading a description of my life over the past 2years. Day in day out. 7days a week merge together to become 1 day, 4 weeks a month become one week.12months a year become one month.
    tick tock tick tock
    does anyone else feel jealous of others that life is normal for them and your just waiting for your life to eb away.

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