Sleep

 Life feels like an uncomfortable necessity before sleep. Sleep, on the other hand... feels like an escape. Nothing better that taking a nap and not having to do, think or worry about anything. Like a perfect excuse from living. Oh how I loved it when before surgery they put me on anesthetics. I really fear I could become addicted to them if I had free access. How wonderful to not even feel the time pass.

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  1. Janice and poppy15/6/22 20:14

    Your words the courage it took to face the same day over and over again. These words hit home so much. All hope disappears.

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