On my confrontation with her

 Am I wrong in everything? Is everything I feel wrong, an overreaction and overdramatic? But our relationship was full of lies for 4 whole years. Am I wrong to not have any respect for him? Am I wrong to feel hurt and back stabbed? Is my reality and the way I see things unfair? If it is, then I don't want to live this life. I don't want a life with such false conclusions and such a wrong viewpoint on reality. Am I really so selfish? So mean? I feel like these words she said behind my back will echo in my head and will be engraved in my heart till the day I die. They might as well write them on my tombstone, because it is probably the truth. I am probably the worst, maddest person on earth and I hurt everyone around me with the stupid way I see things. When will I let go of this life already? The sooner the better. Then I won't have to face all these confrontations with people I feel, wrongly according to them and they may be right, that have stabbed me in the back. Am I really overreacting? I am really tired and hurt of thinking all these things and I want to stop once and for all. I am so so tired. I cannot go on like this. I cannot go on at all. I have to die because I desperately need the rest.



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